‘You know baby number 2 won’t be as good as Freddie was! You never get two the same!’ ‘Your in for a rude of wakening!’ These are just some of the statements I’ve been hearing very frequently lately, with comments like this it just adds to my anxiety of having and coping with two children.
Lately I’ve been thinking how swell we have it! We have reached an age were Freddie understands bribing, we’re past most of the baby stuff (roll on potty training) and we are able to enjoy getting out as a family. My husband and I have time in the evenings for ourselves, to watch TV or go out somewhere. Life is pretty routine based and calm and smooth! I like routine!!….I’ll add- he’s still a toddler…so calm and smooth not exactly but you get my sentiment 😂.
Somewhere in the not too distant future things are about to change, it’s going to change for us all. Firstly I’m scared for Freddie..I know having another baby, a sibling for him-will be great. I have 5 of them myself and I couldn’t be without them. However he’s been used to being solo for over 2 years..have I left the gap too big? Is he going to turn into a horror? Is he, dare I say it (with a lump in my throat) going to feel less loved? At times I look at him and feel tears welling up in my eyes, dear love him he hasn’t a clue what’s about to happen and I don’t want anything to change. Our evenings of getting cosy and watching utter nonsense are about to get hit! I miss it already…
Secondly & selfishly-What about me! I googled life with two kids and read one line saying ‘life with two is impossible,’ I didn’t read any further. Am I going to be run ragged? Will I be able to do it all? Will I have time to be a fulfilled human/wife? And most importantly will I have enough love and time for two?
Anyone who has any wisdom and care to enlighten me please do. While my anxiety on this is at the forefront of my mind I still remember the newborn days! And I know how wonderful Freddie is and I keep reminding myself how special it’s going to be to introduce him to a new brother or sister. I also know that I feel competent as a mother, I’m very confident in saying I’m a good mum! Surely that’s the most important thing!
I hope I update this by next year..saying all these worries are valid however they aren’t important.
I’ll keep you posted! xx